A 1000 thoughts

Monday, July 18, 2005

Three words left unspoken '
A few days ago , i was like crap . now , i'm still like crap. Okay , thought about it . Saw that there was no point in carrying on when the love you have for me is like getting lesser and lesser each day. So , i thought that if thats what its going to be then its gonna be like that. Well, back to square one again. Once again , i can no longer have you for me. I can no longer tell whats on your mind. Can no longer tell if i still mean alot to you. no longer have that warm feeling. no longer feeling so free and that i hade nothing to hide. no longer have you feel that strong feeling. no longer having the laughters we had on the phone. no longer feeling like i was never alone. no longer here for me to protect me from harm. No longer here to brigthen up my day. No longer to chase my sadness away. No longer to make me feel like i was ever empty. no longer feel the warmth from your touch. no longer have you to stop my tears from dropping. no longer have you saying the three words. no longer catching me when i was falling. no longer sitting at the beach together. No longer the same anymore. Maybe i was just being silly crying over it and thinking that you might come back again but now i finally realised that i've been naive to think that way. I guess i should start anew . and this time i'll try to mean what i say. After all the shit i've been saying about starting anew was like rubbish. But now , i think i have to really consider letting go and moving on with my life. Though life will never be the same anymore , i think i'll never be over you. this feeling is just too deep and i just cant hide for you , the feelings are so hard to fight. not strong enough.

6:35:00 PM

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