A 1000 thoughts

Monday, August 29, 2005

as usual , i'm a failure . Tried so hard to speak to you this afternoon but i think i failed. I dont consider that a good talk . it was more like laughing . okay nobody has any idea how hard it is to talk to someone you love so much but knowing you can never have that person back . friends ? not easy to be . saying " yes we're friends from now " but all those words that comes out from my mouth about being friends are like "talk only no action". sighs . i thought through what you said and i seriously think i have attitude problem . i think i seriously need to reflect . maybe i'm the one who's wrong all the while . but because of my " i am right" attitude thats why i always think that i'm the right one. maybe . i dont know . i think this is because of my attitude. okay my attitude sucks . i admit . i'll pray tonight so that i can get forgiveness from the Lord for my sickening bitchified attitude. i dont know why but i am falling in love with you day by day when the love is suppose to fade away , its just not right . but how ? there is something blocking our love to be together . i doubt anything can take that blockage away . i guess i need you but i cant . AHH !!!

7:19:00 PM

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